Boys

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Well, a couple days ago I said I'd say something about my T-jerk problems, but I wholly decided against it now. I thought I still had "feelings" for him, even though he violently rejected me (words can be violent!). But now I know I was terribly wrong. Well, maybe not. I still think he's an okay dude, he just needs to get past his biases. But I don't care for him anymore. He could go crawl away and die, all I care.

But Tyler isn't the reason I'm typing this, or the reason that the title of this journal entry is called boys. I have actually . . . two more boy instances? Once includes my brother, Ben.

I'll start with Ben, even though my encounter with him was this morning, rather than last night with Henry. I got to talk to him, and I'm really, really, really glad I did.

Well, this morning I forgot to push in my chair at the table, and Ben climbed up in it. So he didn't climb up on the table, I pushed him in, just for the heck of it. I moved away, looked back at him and he belched really loudly. I started cracking up. He just opened his mouth and burped without expression, and it was a pretty impressive for such a young kid. It was a pretty awesome burp, and it'll go on my list of the best burps. I have burps from Kimber's party on there (so far the best burps EVER), and I also have one out back in my weeds that echoed a few times off the trees (only Joe heard that, besides me), another one is Henry's creative burp (which was very funny) and now Ben's burp is on there, too.

Well, now I have to get on with the most important message of this . . . message. Keep in mind I'm just a teenager and my priorities are totally out of whack (lol!).

I was just about to retire to bed, because Mom yelled at me to go to bed, when I went on Facebook and saw that Henry was on. I suddenly became really nervous and excited at the same time because of my embarrassing speech I had in mind. We've been friends since . . . seventh grade (now I'm in tenth! Yipee!), but I've never said anything like I did to him in all that time.

I started the conversation with a couple heys, because my Internet was being stupid and wasn't sending the messages (so I thought) and it wasn't receiving any from Henry. I had to shut it down twice and start it back up again before I could actually get a conversation going with him.

But then I said that we've been friends for so long, and he's been such a great friend and so on, but then I froze. Then he said, exact "words": "r u asking me out?" I didn't say it straight out, methinks, but I agreed. And he said that he was already going out with a girl. Which I sort of had a feeling he already was, but then he admitted something that surprised me. He said he had a "feeling" for me for a while, and he was going to ask me out earlier, but Friedman beat him to it. Then he said that he didn't ask me out because he was afraid I would say no.

Me dating Friedman was sort of what brought me to realizing that I actually liked Henry . . . more than a friend. I couldn't believe it that Henry wanted to ask me out. He also said that he didn't think the relationship he was in currently would last long, because he said she only likes him because "he's hot and nice". I like Henry because the years I've been friends with him . . . I don't know. I never can explain my feelings, and it kind of frustrates me. A lot of people didn't like Henry because of various reasons, but I ignore a lot of the bad things about a person (such as Tyler) and I look at the best parts of a person's personality. Henry's been there for me, he's been a great friend, and we share a whole ton of interests.

I can't even believe that I've been happy more than I normally am lately, and it's mostly just because I told Henry what I thought. It freaking rocks.

No I have to go pack lunch so Joe and I can picnic. Yay! But it's hot outside. . . . Too bad. Can't wait to swim! (Did you know Internet is supposed to be capitolized? Me neither!)

SONG OF THE DAY: Leave Out All the Rest ~ Linkin Park